topi berfikir aku

for she is confused
for i know
and you know
somehow we know

she roams and dances
blurs and edged
she is naked stark

13 Ramadhan 1426 Hijrah bersamaan 17 Oktober 2005

~partial eclipse of the lunar kind. the partial eclipse seen over Putrajaya mosque.

Allah maha agung, pencipta segala makhluk.

alhamdulillah, dah 21 thn saye 

yeah, that was what a friend said through a short messaging service. it struck me like my dad’s slap when i was little over a fight with my bro. it stung..because i didn’t expect it.

my friend was refering to the holy month of fasting. i jokingly said that i can’t focus on studying for exam. i’m driven to do something else. finishing up our website project which is due on the 20th, indulge meself into Raymond E. Feist’s fantasy, surf online till late night, sitting around doing nothing, have a long nap.

but hey wait, "bulan puasa, nafsu je yg tinggal, takkan tak bleh kot"….spiced up with an evil laugh.

sedia maklum, semasa bulan Ramadhan makhluk ciptaan Allah swt bergelar syaitan akan diikat. tiada lagi suara-suara sumbang mencucuk, mengarah, memujuk kita untuk melakukan dosa-dosa, kemungkaran, maksiat.

so, if i still succumbed to these petty challenges of lust, am i therefore frail in my will?

tch tch tch. then one can only do one thing. make sure you don’t yeild to such simple lure of lust. how? yep, should know that it is a responsibility as a student to study, a daughter to present parents with effort and good results, a muslim to stand on faith and commitment. so be responsible.

muahahaha. adui. ni ape aku wat kat blog lagik nih? study weh..!

p/s: thanks firhad =)

last few days, melody comes
this is what i feel and think
this is what i want to feel, to think..

"ruler of my heart
robber of my soul
where can you be?
i’ll wait patiently"

but when mornings come, all is different..all is well..
with confusion buried, only a few inches deep..
…then darkness visits again..