topi berfikir aku

yep, it might be confusing and dull. tiresome and arduous. but peeps, admit it, we’ve also learnt new skills and knowledge from Rancangan Orientasi Sekolah. some might even gain bittersweet, unforgettable experiences. like i did.

okay2, maybe i get the extra cheese, i get to go through it all with tina and there was also a sis from our faculty in uum working on ROS with me. however, though we got each other, we also went through the same heart-pounding, sweaty palms routine.

ask yourself, apart from the petty complaints and all drama, did you manage to achieve the objectives of ROS? what? tak tau nak tengok kat mane? refer to page 1 in the purple booklet.

it is kinda frustrating to see some of the real process behind the management of certain events in my school. the mess, the anger, the miscommunication, the cower of teachers over the guru besar. hehe.

maybe i was too mushy [on Mondays] but i can’t help feeling overwhelmed by the pupils’ sweet and at the top of their lungs voices, singing the school’s song. and yeah, we can’t be too sure, whether they really understand what they are spitting out of their mouth. but seeing them there, wholeheartedly singing, these future leaders, engineers, teachers!, designers, or even the possibility of future corrupted beings [ouch!]…and how it will be our responsibility [huge one that is] to provide them knowledge and nurture them with love. they will learn, make mistakes and learn from it, fall and rise, and hopefully achieve the best in life.

today is the last day of school observation for me. no more aching feet, walking around the school looking for respective teachers for information, no more boring, uneventful hours of doing nothing in bilik gerakan, no more signing on yellow and pink forms for relief periods, no more happy, innocent faces of pupils, no more hullabaloo from pupils eager to learn….waaaaaaaa!! isk isk..

well,not until 2008 that is. hopefully we’ll be posted to a good school with great pupils and fine staffs.

okeh people, now let’s start cracking our heads to explain and elaborate on the information we got.

i’m going back to jitra tonight. huhu. gonna miss you, sputnik.

"Ya Nabi Salam a’laika, Ya Rasul Salam a’laika, Ya Habib Salam a’laika, Solawatullah a’laika"

12 RabiulAwal, the love of Allah SWT, the light on earth, the saviour of mankind, the last prophet, Muhammad SAW was born.

Late morning today, the school that i observe for ROS held a majlis ilmu on Maulidur Rasul. pupils were divided into small groups according to their Year. i was in a hall where Year 5 and 6 pupils were grouped. they also sang some nasyid, with such joy and innocence, i could feel tears of bliss building up in me. let us ponder upon these lyrics for a while and may our heart capture the meaning and importance of Islam in our life as how Nabi Muhammad had shown to us, and will always do through his sunnah.

"Rasullulah dalam mengenangmu, Kami susuli lebaran sirahmu, Pahit getir perjuanganmu, Membawa cahaya kebenaran

Engkau taburkan pengorbananmu, Untuk umatmu yang tercinta, Biar terpaksa tempuh derita, Cekalnya hatimu menempuh ranjaunya

Tak terjangkau tinggi pekertimu, Tidak tergambar indahnya akhlakmu, Tidak terbalas segala jasamu, Sesungguhnya engkau rasul mulia, Tabahnya hatimu menempuh dugaan, Mengajar erti kesabaran, Menjulang panji kemenangan, Terukir namamu di dalam al Quran

Rasullah kami umatmu, Walau tak pernah melihat wajahmu, Kami cuba mengingatimu, Dan kami cuba mengamal sunnahmu

Kami sambung perjuanganmu, Walau kita tak pernah bersua, Tapi kami tak pernah kecewa, Allah dan Rasul sebagai pembela"

.Eidul Walid ya Rasulullah. Sunnahmu jadi ikutan. Insyaallah.

ever feel that you’re being used? it hurts eh?

and do you know why it’s so hurtful? because the personage who is using you, is Chabat. a close Chabat one that is. this creature would subtly, yet viciously, penetrate your simple jolly mind with good putar alam words, big innocent eyes, smile kambing, and BAM!

sounds familiar? seems harmless aite. but not when you’re actually working on something and don’t have the heart to say no to Chabat, not when you’re finally there but not seen, not when you TRUST Chabat but then Chabat misuse that trust.

i’m jaded, battered, beaten by these acts. but certainly will not yield.

[owh yeah, Chabat is a human character in a book, charming to all yet very sly, let’s not talk about gender here, okie, heh]

i’ve met individuals who make me smile, laugh and cry. they show me how one appreciates and love, how one is amusing and witty, and also how one shamelessly [thus with certain aims] lies, brags or even steals. these individuals are around me, beside me, for yesterday, today, tomorrow and most probably will meet many others in the future. muchas gracias! for loving or hating me, i’ve learnt loads from you. the shameful people? yep, they are here to stay too. and to these people that i’m tired of being nice to. but you see, i’m just too gracious to actually spat it out what they did to their face. heh but in the end, i’m only human aite. for example, when the time comes, certain individuals will have a ‘taste’ of my mind.honestly, my intentions were good, but as a friend put it, because the stuff comes from ME, thus the person(s) who get my ‘say’, somehow would flustered, feel so disgraced and been put down because as i understand [or found out much later, from somebody else], they interpret my ‘observation’ into something which is beyond what i really meant to say. why? geez, i dunno myself. tak molek la syak2 wasangka/salah sangka ni. tapi kalau kita yang mendorong orang lain untuk rasa syak, pun tak molek jugak kan. heh. i’ve learnt to carefully hold my tongue. friends or no friends. good intentions or not.