topi berfikir aku

oh macam sangat kontradik. sebelum ini perkataan ‘dirty’. hari ini bersyukur. hehe. don’t judge people by what they write. hahah. suka hati buat peraturan sendiri.

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alhamdulillah sudah melepasi temuduga suruhanjaya perkhidmatan pelajaran. kecoh ape weh! baru interview. kita tunggu keputusannya lagi tiga empat bulan. harap berita baik-baik belaka. aku orang pertama yang tiba, dan masuk, dan balik. terang sudah. penemuduga ialah seorang perempuan yang nama bapanya aku sudah lupa. beliau tidak senyum tapi membantu juga memberi idea lantas meletak perkataan dalam mulut. put words in my mouth? haha. soalan-soalan yang diajukan perlu dijawab dalam bahasa inggeris kerana beliau sedar akan opsyen ku. antara topik-topik pertanyaan adalah:

- latar belakang keluarga dan pendidikan, kbsr, pipp dan kaitannya dengan p & p, isu semasa luar dan dalam negara, rukun negara, gabungjalin bahasa inggeris dan mata pelajaran lain……yang lain lupa sudah.

terima kasih pada suami dan keluarga yang memberi sokongan, terima kasih pada rakan-rakan yang melayani pertanyaan walaupun temuduga ini sudah basi bagi mereka. hehe.

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alhamdulillah wakil-wakil pejabat pendidikan daerah sudah datang melawat. tiada kes berat haha. fail-fail yang disediakan juga tidak diperiksa. tetapi kami dapat ‘tahniah’ dalam buku rekod mengajar. heh.

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alhamdulillah murid-murid yang disayangi (eceh) tidak buat hal. selesai sudah ujian lisan. perlu direkodkan. esok mesyuarat perantara ketua pentaksir kawasan dan pentaksir kawasan kudat dan banggi. jumpa esok!

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alhamdulillah rupanye seorang murid kelas A aku boleh membaca bahasa inggeris. tetapi mungkin tidak begitu memahami. murid yang kata, “pulang nanti memukat juga aku cigu”. sudah la comel dengan mata besar. cuma nakal dan malas menulis. tapi boleh membaca. aku ulang, tapi malas. hehe.

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alhamdulillah aku sudah sihat dan dengarnya rakan-rakan yang sakit juga beransur sihat. antibiotik sudah habis. eh lepas temuduga terus sihat? hahaha. aku tak tipu la. betul sakit tau. macam panas meruap kalau mandi air kering tidur petang esok baru sedar punya sakit. ha. matno, aku dapat lagi ubat bengkak dan hisap. bila kau nak blog dengan gambar ubat itu?

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tahniah buat rakan-rakan yang sudah terima surat perlantikan! aku terima watikah perlantikan saja hehe. alhamdulillah reen selamat pulang ke tanah air. tahniah buat dzull eheh aku tau! tahniah buat juniors dan tiga rakan, dengarnya sudah terima surat tawaran! nanti dah tau posting mana, beritahu la ye~ tahniah buat rakan-rakan yang akan bergelar isteri dan ibu!!~

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p/s: kecoh macam semua ucapan tersebut dibaca oleh orang-orang yang ditujukan. tsk.

hello dear readers!

it has been a while eh….and a lot has happened since. good, bad and ugly.

a pandemic is causing panic all over the world. did you know that a similar pandemic case killed millions of people in the year 1918?

yesterday, a high school in kudat was closed because of this flu. it’s only 3 km from my school.

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michael jackson passed away. oh how i love watching his video clips and dancing to his songs. dance ya, singing to his songs is quite tricky. we have a video tape of his history album and we used to watch it again and again and again. if the tape is not spoilt by mildew, we could probably still watch it today. but now we have mtv yeah.

and once upon a time, tv2 aired a few short series about the jackson’s family. it was like a documentary with dramatization. eh? what would happen to all the teddy bears, flowers and makeshift shrines in remembrance of him? will family members keep it in a special room in his home?

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next week the pejabat people is coming. i’m going to be interviewed by the spp. have to prepare all the fail meja. study. conduct oral assesment for three classes. four novels to read.

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but all is well, because also during my hiatus,

i got married to suhaizal bin samsudin ^_^

*debush*

p/s: alasan nk guna perkataan hiatus. bosan. semua orang pun konon nak guna. lame. and i can’t get the photo to be in the center. stupid !*#*%@! setting.

ticer warna hijau

monyet warna selain warna hijau la tak kan tu pun tak tau

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“eh siapkan jawapan kamu! tinggal kosong macamana nak dapat A?”

*sengih* “ndak apalah ticer, pulang nanti makan juga aku, memukat juga aku”

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“siap sudah?”

“hentam saja aku ticer”

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“ticer, mau salin ka ticer?”

*toleh, buat muka kau-baru-sekolah-hari-ni-ke*

*malu kambing biri-biri (sheepishly), keluarkan buku*

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“ticer, betul ka ini ticer?” *tunjuk lukisan segi empat tepat*

*tengok, angguk*

“ticer, membuyok kau ticer!”

*buat muka kau-kecoh-apehal* “teacher tak bagi jawapan pun, angguk je”

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*menyanyi* “andaiku tahu, bila sampai hajalku~”

“ticer! membujuk nama bapak ticer!”

*tengok, buat muka whatever* “pandai”

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“ticer, guna buku english ka ticer?”

*sambil menulis* “tak, buku matematik”

…….i teach english for God’s sake!!…….

toleh, and that boy was trying to make lines in his math book.

*sigh*

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tsk. they are monkeys. but they are my monkeys.

sebelum mengamuk atau terasa, sila baca sampai akhir entri ye?

it’s ridiculously curious that i find people close to me (and myself included) would ramble, whine to oneself or share problems, feelings and what not with friends/family not using our mother tongue but english. why? do you do this too? okay, in some situation, maybe not face to face. but we do write or ‘talk’ in that language. like this, see? mind you, it’s not like talking in every day conversation. that’s what make it mind-boggling alright, not to that extent but yeah because if we are capable of avoiding the common reasons of not using english; embarrassment, cockiness and grammatical error, while whining or problem-sharing or heart-pouring, why on earth didn’t we use it more frequently and not just on examples mentioned above? weird ain’t it? weird that we find another language rather than our very own, which we grow up with, much more comforting and easily used to express ourself.

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“english is a practical language, you won’t master it if you don’t use it in conversations.” -an enthusiastic teacher/colleague with annoying mood swings to match.

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i tend to lean back and forth between these two in blue quotes:

of course we encourage our pupils to speak the language,

“it’s okay if you say it wrong, you’ll learn from it. go on, try”.

do they try? haih. but then i found this,

“if you can’t speak it correctly, don’t speak it at all”.

kijam betul! tapi….haa jangan tipu, kadang-kadang kau pun rasa nak sekeh-sekeh je orang yang masuk kategori macam ni kan? kalau tak speak pun, mereka write/spell it wrong. gatal sangat nak guna bahasa inggeris kenapa?

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i had my share of embarrassing moments when i was eager to use english and practice it. because i was not confident doing it face to face, i started chatting online. i was silly back then when i had trouble differentiating simple words of suit and suite (hey wait! i even had trouble pronouncing differentiate when i was in high school and i was the english language society’s secretary! duh). yeah alright, dimaafkan sebab i was online at that time and usually you would just type and reply really fast so that the person(s) across won’t wait too long and get bored and move to other chatters, therefore you tend to make a few typos. i meant to type suits you but the e got out. and you know, i could actually see him snickered at my obvious mistake because we were talking about his principles then him joining the army so what does suite got to do with it, right?. maybe he even laughed out loud and rolled on the floor! (because he’s a native speaker see). but i think i covered up the humiliating typo pretty good after that by making stupid explanations heh. and some random malay guys went mad at my percubaan murni to brush up my english that they gave me a jolly good time of replying them back in the opposite language that they were trashing me with.

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sometimes i lean almost all the way towards the second quote. but matno and jannah always always bring me back to earth. thank you (^_^). jadi syitah, kalau kau terasa nak sekeh orang-orang itu, ingatlah bahawa kau pun jahil dan masih belajar juga seperti mereka. if you can’t help it, just snicker. please don’t laugh and roll on the floor. at least, they are doing it (“there’s no such thing as try, just do it!”. where did i read this ay?).

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have fun with english! and please don’t hesitate to correct my spelling or grammar. because i’m doing it! ;p i mean, doing the trying, not doing the spelling and grammatical error. err boleh juga kut. well, it goes both ways.

something happened and i wrote about it. but then, i figured that i don’t want to be scrutinized and closed ones making a fuss over me. haha. therefore, i rewrite the entry. it was a moment of confusion. i was all fired up to write and share to get feedbacks and advices but i know i shouldn’t. thank you friend for satisfying my thirst for the truth last night. oh a bit kinky there. haha. had a discussion on yahoo messeger. he struggled to help me understand the situation by giving opinions on his side of the planet, mars. but you enjoyed the session, didn’t you?

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to summarize my feelings, my confusion, i resort to these lyrics. this is why i have a love-hate thing with sundays. there is a good selection of songs on the radio that they call adult-contemporary, but sundays also mean there’s school tomorrow. tsk. so here’s the song by john legend.

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girl i’m in love with you

this ain’t the honeymoon

past the infatuation phase

right in the thick of love

at times we get sick of love

it seems like we argue everyday

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i know i misbehaved

and you made your mistakes

and we both still got room left to grow

and though love sometimes hurt

i still put you first

and we’ll make this thing work

but i still think we should take it slow

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we’re just ordinary people

we don’t know which way to go

cuz we’re just ordinary people

maybe we should take it slow

this time we’ll take it slow

this time we’ll take it slow

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take it slow

maybe we’ll live and learn

maybe we’ll crash and burn

maybe you’ll stay, maybe you’ll leave

maybe you’ll return

maybe another fight

maybe we won’t survive

but maybe we’ll grow

we never know baby you and i

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this ain’t a movie no

no fairy tale conclusion ya’ll

it gets more confusing everyday

sometimes it’s heaven sent

then we head back to hell again

we kiss then we make up on the way

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i hang up when you call

we rise and we fall

and we feel just like walking away

as our love advances

we take second chances

though it’s not a fantasy

i still want you to stay

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simple and straightforward. there. i’ve said it. do unto others as you would have others do unto you is so overrated and not applicable in real life. life is after all, unfair.

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smile people! why so glum?